That's all I can do for now.

I am the eldest of the family, and it's hard to be strong but I need to. I don't have a job yet that's why I am struggling and not able to support my family especially my brother who's in college now.
All I can do for him is to give him moral support. I always keep him motivated but I know he's motivated on his own as he have dreams in life.

My brother is not an academic achiever unlike our sister but he have some skills that we don't have. He's more on sports and singing. Now, I kept on telling him to continue pushing himself to his goal and enjoy his journey as a student. He's a 4th year student now and took BS Business Administration.

Last night, we had a conversation and he told me his enjoying his life as a student. He also told me that he looks for a way to where he can have extra money for his studies. I remember myself when I was also in college and we have the same situation. That's why I told him to continue fighting and that everything will be worth it soon.

**As the eldest sister, what I can do for my siblings?

• I always see to it that they can learn from me from what I am doing even if I know I am not perfect. I do my best not to show them of some bad behavior so that they won't do such also.

• I reprimand them when I saw something they did wrong especially about being disrespectful. I don't tolerate some of their attitudes if they did something not good for them and to other people especially to our parents.

• I will listen to them not only one-sided so that I will understand them all. Like, I don't want to favored one of them if I don't know the deep reason. Coz, you know, in siblings there will always be fights and it's normal.

• I will fix everything if needed. But if I see no changes, I will make them realized things through not talking to them and cutting them off. One of my ways to let them know that I am mad is to not talk to them after reprimanding them and not following orders as they knew that they've done a mistake.

• Support them with their goals in life and redirect them if I seen them being lost. Especially our third one who we know is being lost of the way. Though it's hard to handle her, I hope someday I can grab her thoughts and redirect her once again.

To be an eldest sibling is so hard. Especially if your a girl. Because sometimes, they will look for a loophole for you and counter attack you. That's why as much as possible I always think of things I need to do so that my siblings can't see bad things about me. As I know that some siblings will not listen to you and will fight you as you don't have the right of telling them what to do if they're being lost.

I am the kind of sister that supports a lot to my siblings. I want us to be close and sweet to each other. We are not perfect as we also fights but we know the love is there. That's why I am hoping for one of my siblings to have her good thoughts and thinking back. I know it's not late for her to ask forgiveness to our parents.

That's all for today everyone. The video above is my brother's badminton game. I just like to share it here as I am so happy for him. Thank you for reading my post, have a nice day.