I'm going to be a DAD!

For the longest time I have been a little scared of kids, they always seemed so fragile and I normally avoided little ones. I always thought they were very cute, but whenever I could I would not hang around when a little one is around. Fast forward to my time in Korea and actually being surrounded by kids and I realized they are tough as nails! I was scared at first, but soon saw that they were much stronger and resistant to pain than we might think. They fall plenty of times, hit their head, or even get kicked by a friend. They were always alright and walked it off most of the time. That was around 4 years ago that I started to really enjoy kids and knew I wanted one of my own.

It was January 1st that I asked my girlfriend (@imdazu) to marry me, we both knew as soon as we get married we will have kids right away. (In Korean culture, once the question is popped couples normally get married quite fast.) We were set to get married in April, but we were eager to start a family so we tried to have a kid. From what I read it was sometimes rather difficult and took some couples months before they could get pregnant. For us, this was not the case and in February we were pregnant!

Being our first pregnancy we were so stoked and also a little shocked. We shared the news with our parents as soon as we could and it was pure bliss from there. We had a monthly doctor's appointment and the second was even more exciting than the first one! That means the third appointment will be even better, right? I was over the moon with excitement that morning of our third appointment. With a spring in my step and a whistle in my heart.

Sadly... it was not meant to be. We had a miscarriage. We were devastated and heartbroken. The news, heavy as it was, could just not sink in. What did we do wrong? Where did it all go South? Our minds were wondering and our hearts were torn. We couldn't accept or understand it... Time heals all scars though, and after reading up on pregnancies way more and consulting our baby books, We saw it was not that uncommon for a miscarriage. Especially with the first pregnancy. The strangest thing is I did read it before our third appointment but it just never sank it. I just didn't think it could happen to us...

With our wounds slightly healed and our minds at ease we decided to try again as soon as possible since we felt older and wiser by this whole experience. So after consulting our doctor we decided to try again. As lucky as we are, we were pregnant again in no time! This time around we took every possible precaution and we decided to not really share the news to everyone until we passed the first trimester. The danger zone so to speak. With that being said, here I am to share my happy news with you! It has been more than 3 months and our pregnancy is going well with a very healthy baby that seems rather active and pretty happy.

Here is our 12-week sonar scan and we can safely say that all looks well! We did go for another one after this, but I wanted to share this one since it is very special to me.