Is Bali still welcoming? I went and asked the locals myself. by @englishmigrant on 3Speak
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I just don't get why this family feel I need to shout at each other to communicate. It isn't, you know, it's just normal, like, it's just what they do, like they're not shouting, they're not angry, I assume. It's just how they communicate all the fucking time. This morning about half six were some banging, like they were banging. Just, I just don't understand how you can vent rooms for people and then bang at half six in the morning and sh- shout and not have any... Anyway, it just is what it is, and soon I'll be in a forest, we'll be silent. The building site started now, it's such a noisy morning. I hate starting the day in noise! I'm gonna have to put some YouTube or music on something to drown it out, but my speaker does that stupid cutting out thing, so listening to music is unbearable, I really need to take that back. They did say a month guarantee on it, but maybe we'll do that today. That makes so much difference starting the day in peace. Ah, dear, not a good start today. It's morning cup and cigarette time, second of the day. I'm just not enjoying it. The first one, I only submit to a dance about here. Maybe it's time to just track this whole smoking thing in. So much, uh, it's fear right where I suppose it is, so much fear attached around stopping. Like, what will I do? What will my escape be? But if you're not enjoying it, you're not enjoying it. Just gives a reason to get out of bed, as in like, so obviously I hang on to that in and out of sleep phase as long as possible. and, you know, the fantasies I can go into, I would hug in someone and stuff like that when I'm kind of half asleep. And then as that wears off, it's like, obviously it's like, oh no, I'm no longer asleep. And he's like, oh, it's okay, I can have a coffee and a cigarette. Which is all just another fucking stupid mind story. There's a lot to let go of, but if it's not working, it's not working. Oh, where fuck? No idea how that happened. Wow, so I've actually just been asleep for last three hours. I arranged to meet Deroon this morning yesterday, and then when I was awake a couple of hours ago, I was like, yeah, I'm here. I just went back to bed, and kind of way for like, oh, I'll just lie down for 10 minutes and go and meet him, but kind of knowing that I wasn't going to... I don't know what's going on, I mean, major resistance, but, whey! And now I've just fallen over, fuck me! Um, you know what, I'm just fed up of making stories out of stuff, I'm being like, oh, it's this, it's far, it's just like, no, that's just really fucking hard, and I can't really else for it anymore. I think it's, right, I'm out today. So, everybody's obviously had a good run this morning, YouTube! Yeah, I've definitely never been this tired of a way to meet in Jerome before. I don't know how I'm gonna do it. I am shattered. I didn't get sleep to about 2 a .m. I don't think I had a trouble before to sleep, but I've stepped up to 10 in the morning. I can feel a desire to film it, but then, I don't know if it's fear, I mean, he doesn't mind at all, but there's still something in me that feels a bit awkward, asking him to film it, and then the story of like, well, no one watches it anyway, so what's the point comes up. So yeah, I don't think I'll film it, I think again, it would just be for me. I might have just got them at the end of that clip, I didn't notice them until after I'd stop filming, so I don't think I did. But I just drove past a Western couple with the female driving the bike. And that just doesn't feel right to me. I mean, in Thailand, I know it's, like, highly frowned upon. My mate, who lives in Thailand long term, is now marriage to a Thai woman. He would tell me about when he went dating, when he first got there, like, the woman would come to meet him on her scooter, and she'd get off and get on the back of it and expect him to drive her scooter. I'm like, yeah, it's just so beta male, like, as if you'd want to be driven by a woman. I don't know, that's not any disrespect to women, but I just, it just, it's more a feeling, like, it just felt so off when I saw that. Why did I not take the last left? Why, what is wrong with me today? And he was a total beta male as well, though, about 50. and he was like this skinny little dweeby bloke and then he had this big fat missive bulldog type looks like she pegs him up the ass every night and yeah definitely look like an S& embellish ship but now I'm going into serious assumptions and possible projections. Ooh, I've never done that stuff, woohoo hoo -hoo-hoo. Yeah my peak human experience ever, maybe I should do a video of this, but no one watches them anyway, what's the point? human experience ever is definitely snorting a shitload of Charlie and be fissed up the asshole, and I would do it again tomorrow if it didn't have spiritual consequences. I hate this, so this woman, oh, this woman's got a torch out. Why do you need a torch out? Why don't you just let your eyes get used to the dark? I'm just focusing on this situation now. But it's, yeah, it just amazes me that people think they need a torch. We're good. Off you go. Yeah, it's like such fear, such fear playing out, like, oh! Like, what, I guess we might be scared of an animal, maybe, or like, if you just walk up this road without a torch, your eyes will get totally used to it, and it's really nice, really nice feeling with that. Tourists and their tortures, utter retardation. I saw a really good post on Twitter today, saying the word retard doesn't refer to disabled people. It clearly refers to stupid people, and if you don't realise that, you are a retard. And I would add, if you walk around with a fucking torch on a cement road where there's lights everywhere anyway, really, okay, it's not lit up the whole way. and there's no chance of you tripping over anything, you are also a retard. I get a shot of a crazy junction at night. It's been a very slow content day, as I've spent the day with Jeroon, feeling very inferior. It's the first time I really struggled to be around him, but I think it's more because when I got there, he was with another guy, which obviously upset me, and then especially when I realized the other guy was way more conscious than me. and I've lived a way more interesting life than me, he'd got stuck in the desert for three days and almost died. Amazing guy, amazing guy, hey! But I felt super inferior, I really felt that, but I'll do a whole Book and Mirror video on my crappy existence and my pedestaling and my self-consciousness and general self -hatred. So, if you want to see that, I guess that would be at the end of the video. But for now it's definitely a burger day, so I basically just spent the whole evening in bed. Hang on, the whole afternoon in bed, after, early afternoon with Jeroon. Ah, feeling really shitty, feeling like I can't do YouTube anymore, because no one watches it. Hopefully by the time you see this video, you'll be like, what's he talking about? There's thousands of people watching, but I'm starting to think that probably won't be the case. The video I just released was, I thought, one of the best ones I'd ever made, and it's done so bad, it hasn't even got a thousand views. So yeah, don't know if I can keep doing it, but then what else am I gonna do? Look at that, sparkly, sparkle. Anyway, right now I'm gonna go and get some stodge, some nice depression food, and I also need some more water and some more fizzy pop, and some more apple-side of vinegar, but I'm not going that far. I see it the bigger place. This place is nuts, I mean, it works, so maybe it's not nuts, maybe it's just a different culture, that is actually the answer. But they just walk out into the road with their hand, like, oh, the peck can't do it, because they've got one hand on the camera and one hand in the back. Well, and, um, it's a place, but it's mentally. Yeah, we just walk out in front of the traffic, like just like saying stop with their hands. So we're like, yeah, people stop, and I guess it works. But it's very different in that. It is bizarre, but only bizarre to me because I'm not used to me, you know, obviously, you know, obviously, we're coming home and out of here, and it works. I still can't believe I've seen one accident or collision or anything. Wow, it's amazing. Anyway, here we are at the bank of the burgers, fantastic. Hello, can I get this one? Fantastic, how are you? Good to see you, man. It's so hard to work out, if they like you or not, if they actually give a shit in any way. And, you know, this is just a people thing really, but I think out here it's more accentuated because it's so friendly, so engaging. So there was a guy you've probably noticed him there who did the like and subscribe for me last time, subscribed to my channel, seemed very interested, I didn't ask him to subscribe, and then I gave him a thumbs up and suddenly it's like, hey, how's it going? Obviously we're all wearing masks and no one really gives up on some level, but you just wonder how much, like, that is what it is here. and understand me be so, like, why should I be interested in a foreigner? I'm not interested in foreigners to come to England, like, I don't even look at it. And not quite true, but on some levels it is true. And then if I think back to my time in Thailand, like, there were definitely some people that I really got on with and really liked me. But only, like, as a foreigner, like, no one actually would be going to fuck. Oh, it's so funny. What a strange life to be living? But then, is it any strange living in a country where your government hates you and everyone's depressed and the skies are being sprayed and no matter where you live and no matter how you live? Like, lots of flashy lights on that. It's just crazy. When you spend your afternoon with Jeru and you realise, well, you know, full spectrum, I guess, like, it's even more crazy than everything I've just said. But also it kind of makes sense as well, in a way that doesn't really make any sense. Yeah, it looks like that, it's just absolutely crazy. That's beer and lancho. That sounds horrendous. Anyway, we're not here for beer, we just need a bit fizzy-flavoured stuff. What the hell is going on here, I got excited, but oh my god, I've been born cocktail biscuits, salt and vinegar in pink. You haven't a giraffe? I take these and can I take one of the big waters outside? The big water. Big water? Yeah. One, two? One, big water, yeah, thank you. Thank you very much. Big water is in place. I did make the mistake of getting two Vincian who would balance it out when it was an absolute nightmare, so now we just get one at a time and that costs about 80 pence. But how many gallons is that? I have no idea how many litres or other. I don't know, about 15 maybe, a lot. It's like, I don't know, a pound or week to drink water here. Like, I was spending more than about a day in Mexico, so... I just love barley. I just love it. I mean, it's exhaustive. I'm talking to Drew today, and it's the energies, man. Like, yeah, it's for heating or practical stuff, but... I guess I do a separate video of this, but the whole... The energy here is just off the charts, as in like, spiritual awakening, drinking stuff up, like, whoa, it's just off the fucking charts, like, a whole other level to tie that. Like, you just can't even come there. But I will do it as everything you know, man. It's going to get the burger, and go already ordered it, and it's going to get it, and then it's been eating. It didn't even have to get off my back, but burger was brought straight to me, what service. Thanks guys, see you soon. I don't think so, I'm really tired. I did two lives yesterday, but yeah, probably not tonight, maybe tomorrow. Cheers, sir. Watch the lives? Yeah! Really? Wow, cool, man, nice. Thanks guys. That's cool, man, I didn't expect that. I just find it amazing, like, just when you're like, I can't do this anymore, I'm giving up on YouTube. Yeah, you just get these little things that are like... And I was just saying, like, does that guy even fucking know I exist, and he's been watching my lives? Gosh, just the universe is just black, just complete opposites all the time, and the spectrum playing out all the time. Oh my God, that's another thing that I've really discovered with Jewel. I've dedicated my whole life to be in a troupe, speaker, and the truth. and it doesn't exist. Something else I've been doing a video about something that may be at the end of this video, but what will definitely be at the end of this video is, oh yeah, how I just felt so shit today around that super conscious cat. Yeah, actually I think there'll be two videos at the end of this one. There'll be one about how the truth doesn't exist, and one about how shit I felt about that conscious guy. So I guess this will be the last clip, so hopefully you enjoy those. If not, tune up now, like and subscribe, and I'll see you tomorrow for more crap that no one watches. Yay! Except for a random Indonesian dude in a burger place it seems, and a handful of very good people who are very grateful to do. Big love to everyone who does watch, particularly those that watch your head, and hype the videos and like and subscribe. Thank you. This guy knows when I've got food before I even know I've got goody food. Oh, Toby. No, you want to sniff a burger? That's the closest you're going to get to it, mate.