Unconscious TapeLoop Blues #2

Old man down the street
just waiting around to die

lungs have gotten so bad
that he has to walks

up and down the block
up and down the block

he sits on his front step
hung over, beaten by life

Been working hard in the factory
The factory that I call my mind

Because I spent 6 days locked up
Had visions of nim and the devil

My consciousness has been lodge loose
And now it needs to be fixed, time to reboot

Hacking into my consciousness
reengineering my neural-nets
so that I am in control
and not some unconscious tape-loops

because
I burn deeply for those connections
I work hard for those connections

breaking open my mind
trying to find the source code
mental programs running out of control

because when it's my time to die
it's gonna be in a dream inside a dream
stuck inside a dream, trying to wake up

only to find out life is but a dream
I've been there to many time before

when it's my time
I'm just not gonna wake up

ready set, its time to let go
let go of everything
all of it, reset all of it

remaking everything
let go, let go

I don't know what it is
but what it is, is something
that doesn't go away

no matter how much
I run, fight, or try
no matter how much
I drink or smoke
no matter how much
I care or don't care
its always there

I always try to put down the pen
and pick up the sword,
but the pen haunts me in my dreams

I made a deal with the devil and the logos
years ago in a jail cell

from now until forever I am cursed
by the word, verb, the subject
by sound and vibration
by the beat

sometimes I feel I will never be free
the word imprisons me

my consciousness will be forever tied down
by words, ideas and my mind

I don't know if I will ever be able
to put my mind to rest
doom to run life after life
death after death
on this plane and the next
on reality, on perception,
the universe and everything else

But I know what,
when the music hits my ears
and the drink hits my lips
and the smoke hits my lungs
and the words hit my eyes
and the images hit my mind
everything, everything, everything
is alright, forever, and ever and ever...