I need to say it, what do you think about this? // Necesito decirlo, que piensan de esto?

I think that there is nothing better than talking things out because keeping them to ourselves only because we only gain from that, feeling bad and I decided that I don't want to keep making my life bitter for others, that's why I come here to let go of this burden.

CONTEXT:

Before I go into context, I tell you that I am in my car waiting in line to fill it up with gas. The line is quite long.

Ok, now I'm getting to the point:

Those who know me and follow me know that my brother and his wife came to live in my house for economic reasons and that's fine, since my house is an inheritance from our parents and although they (my parents) always wanted to put the house in my name because they knew I was the only one who paralyzed her life, her career, all to take care of them, the truth is that I, to avoid future conflicts with my brothers, I asked them not to do it.

The thing is that I know that when they go to live in the house, the situation would become difficult in every way.

I understand them because I imagine that living in a rented house must not be easy, even less so when the finances are going down and down and the income is at zero.

On the other hand, there is my sister and her children who are really excellent young people and keep their mother's (my sister's) house with the lawn well mowed and in perfect condition.

I have asked them several times to help me mow my lawn because I don't have a mower and the trees in my yard were quite tall. One of them, who is in charge of his mother's garden, always gave me excuses to come.

Then I had to hire a gardener who charged me "cheap" to fix the lawn, but he would not leave things the way I asked him to, even if I was installed next to him. There was no way.

The last time the gardener came last December and finally cut the trees, but left the cut trunks in the middle of the garden, claiming he had to leave because he had an emergency.

My nephew came home around that time and saw those full heavy logs there and I asked him if he could help me pick them up because they were so heavy and his answer was that he was very busy, that he didn't have any gas in the mower either and that the chainsaw was half bad. He always made one excuse after another.

December passed and my brother arrived in January with his wife. There my nephew was there to help him with everything. I felt bad because I had asked him to help me.

The worst thing is not that, but I found out from my sister-in-law that my nephew had said that he didn't like to come to my house, because it looked like a house of terror with so many trees and logs cut in the middle of the lawn.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. But there was more...

He also said that he did not understand how it was possible that I had allowed the house to deteriorate so much and that he understood that all the maintenance of such a big house required money but that he did not feel like coming to visit me and that is why he never came, knowing that these are tasks that require the strength of a man and that a woman cannot do them alone unless she is obviously very strong; but now with his uncle here, he was provoked to come and help.

I thought highly of Miguel (my nephew), that's the truth. I thought he was a transparent guy and that he did not talk nonsense, but he fell off the pedestal. It is incredible that he never came to help me, but now that my brother is here, he does. Now he collaborates and spends his time in my house.

So again I opted to open up, to withdraw, to walk away because this hurts, it makes me angry. So mentally I sent them all to hell with no right of return.

This is my catharsis while in line for gas and I've been in line for over two hours now. Finally it started to move and I got my ticket which guarantees that I will be able to get gas today. It is unbelievable how an oil country has to stand in line to get gas that is not produced here, but in other countries. My son always accompanies me, but this time, he deserted.

Returning to the subject, what made me most angry was the fact that he (my nephew) did not tell me what he thought, why not be upfront, honest? Why go and tell someone else?

I have always thought that if you have something bad to say about someone, you should go straight to talk to that person and not create an absurd gossip that causes fractures in any relationship.

Whatever you have to say, say it to me. Let's talk it over and I'll state my reasons or defend myself, but let's discuss it. But why go and tell someone else? It's something between us, it's nobody else's problem.

The other thing that caught my attention is why if my nephew made that confidence to my sister-in-law, why did she tell me?

Suppose someone comes to talk bad about her or anyone else, the first thing I would do is to tell that person: "tell her, don't tell me. She is the one affected, she is the one you have to talk to, that story is not mine and I don't like gossip". But believe me, I would never tell her because I don't like this kind of gossipy situation.

What do you think about this?