Monologue in spanish and english script: Don't lose relationships

Hola mis hermosos Hivers, he tenido varios problemas personales y de luz en estos días, lamemtablemente no creo poder participar esta semana en un reto.

También estaba indecisa en que comunidad subir este tema porque pese a ser una situación que me sucedió en el mundo geek, también involucra a personas que no son otakus o gamers.

Este es un monólogo reflexivo, que se transmitió vía Zoom el 4 de julio, como no hay una versión en inglés, les dejaré el texto a los Hivers que no hablan español:

Hello my beautiful Hivers, I have had several personal problems and light these days, unfortunately I do not think I can participate this week in a challenge.

I was also undecided in which community to upload this topic because despite being a situation that happened to me in the geek world, it also involves people who are not otakus or gamers.

This is a thoughtful monologue, which was broadcast via Zoom on July 4th, as there is no English version, I will leave the text to the Hivers who do not speak Spanish:

Some people are born with a very particular skill. Some are good at sports, geniuses in the exact sciences, extraordinary in the arts; but there is one skill that I think I lack and it is very different: that of making friends.
As a child I made friends at all levels of the schools, but that was lost over time with unpleasant experiences.
Since preschool I was involved in all the dances of all the groups, the exhibitions, the escort, the vows for spring queen, I talked to all the children in all the groups.
It was even like that for a while in elementary school, until I discovered that there are always those who look for faults in you, and so I cruelly knew what they now call bullying. I am one of the generation that lived through the transition from normalizing it to demonizing it. And although I had almost no friends, I had few true friendships.
And as I grew up, although I was sociable, I didn't retain old friendships, lifelong friendships were lost, new friends were lost.
It was even like this for a while in elementary school, until I discovered that there are always those who look for defects in you, and so I cruelly knew what they now call bullying. I am one of the generation that lived through the transition from normalizing it to demonizing it. And although I had almost no friends, I had few true friendships.
And as I grew up, although I was sociable, I didn't retain old friendships, lifelong friendships were lost, new friends were lost.
Many times I thought I was the problem with everything, but sometimes life surprises you at the right time with unexpected things. In my case, a hobby.
Some love vampire universes, star travel, others are fans of police adventures; I'm from the Japanese cartoon and video game club.
I know, now you'll think I'm a bad cliché, but my friends are not the classic teenagers who don't sleep and insult: they're the ones who create stories.
Thanks to technology and not being able to see so often the few friends in the real world, my friends on the net were closer, it's like being a Tamagotchi in their lives. We help each other, we tell each other stories and we make the famous video calls from time to time. A routine that went hand in hand with my adult occupations, the famous Godin work and artwork.
My life has perhaps not changed that much since that annoying little bug began to spread around the planet. Most of my work was already the famous "home office", but my activities at events and performances already scheduled were cancelled. At the most, before my new routine, I used to go out some weekends, but not so often anymore: I lost the custody of friends in my love break, so no more outings in my town, which is already an advantage in these times of "healthy distance".
But something very curious began to happen among my anime and video game groups, a condition that I believe is stronger and more lethal, that can hurt and leave more lethal wounds: neurosis.
It all started with anxiety situations, all glued to the internet at seven at night to find out how many fallen soldiers there were.
A kind of paranoia followed, and without exaggerating, 90% of my friends and I, were already getting sick from a burning throat, a runny nose, or a headache. We remembered that the weather was very changeable and it went away.
And the worst phase of all began: intolerance. And we all had an episode at some point, a bad mood, sensitivity, defending to death something we like, including sometimes not paying attention to other people's feelings. Some people took spaces to think and left groups, and there was no lack of someone who left just because they were in a bad mood, suddenly we couldn't stand it either or a saying from one country was taken badly in another, and the silliest things like not wanting to be talking about news all day like the little bug.
Unfortunately we have not all overcome this stage well, I am currently among fragmented groups, wounded friendships, divided loyalties, distrust at the top, resentments and something called the Fallacy of Control; wanting or pretending to know how the other thinks and the reason for their actions.
My confinement is practically going well, normal, among some dental complications that will force me to go outside again, it has been bearable until now. I hope they wish me luck now that I am faced with traveling on public transportation because I do not have a car and the uncertainty of going to get my plates removed in places where the sources of infection are high, the laboratories.
I urge you to take some time to meditate if you have conflicts with people close to you. We are all different and it is those differences that ensure that a variety of opinions can exist and that the world is not boring. Do not take to heart expressions, WhatsApp states or memes; leave behind past grudges, accept responsibility for your actions, remember that no one is perfect; neither am I and I am not saying that in this confinement I have not hurt anyone, but I am trying to be prudent.
I will give you a list of my advice in case of a crisis:

1. Do not respond in anger; for a fight to happen, two parties are needed, the one that attacks and the one that responds. Think about who you are and better take some time to calm down.
2. Don't take things for granted; it's normal to feel uncertain and even if you've known the other party for many years, don't think they can always act the same way. You may get a surprise and it is not always pleasant.
3. Understand and listen; it's not about defending the points of what you believe, you have to listen to both sides of the story always. You can realize your own mistakes.
4. Don't close yourself off; it's not going to get anywhere if both sides are going to want to be right.

My past self would be annoying people to death, but I have chosen to calm down and dedicate myself to thinking about my little home solitude. For some time now, my philosophy has been to not get into conflicts in any kind of relationship, I don't feel capable of being in controversy, and I believe that we are all in this now digital world to be at peace and well with each other.

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