I Am Grateful And Want To Cry When I See My Upcoming Rewards In Hive This Week.

Tonight, actually its just few minutes ago .
I randomly checked my upcoming rewards in Hive.
I saw that its 122 Hive Power and 101 HBD .
In that moment, i immediately teared up.
I feel so touched in the moment of happiness and gratefulness .
In the past few month, i think that i talked about it few times already but i was in a lot of struggle , especially mentally.
I took my time off of work space, both crypto and blockchain .
Its not that i really didnt contribute at all but more like i distance myself from it and as with my friend's support i keep hanging out in blockchain because i dont want to forget or let go of my goal when i first starting this journey.
I want to be healed through this journey, and may the time i share with you be blessed.
That is like what i wrote in my bio since beginning.

Not only took some space off from work, i went to some trips to here and there too .

I read a lot if self help book .

There's still so many other things that i do .

But recenly, in the past few weeks, i want to get up.
I wakt to be better.
I try putting more effort towards my work.
Its slowly and i am yet only learning little by little .
But my heart and mind already set in place.
I want to contribute more in this community.

So, when i saw the upcoming rewards.
That is the higher that i ever got in all of my time in this blockchain.
I was shaken up, i feel and know that i am unworthy yet but still i feel grateful for everything.
This event will make me work even harder and better that i wish i can be someone that can proudly show my content to whomever seeing .

In this video or in this post, i might be babling a lot.
My words might be not making any sense.
Its all due to my excitement.
Please forgive me for that.
Thank you for all the experience in my journey on healing my heart.