I have this little story I’d love to share with you, I warn you: It’s gonna be a little intense! Here we go:
Ever since I started this music and theatre journey, I’ve left my body and soul, blood, sweat and tears on it. Countless hours rehearsing, hard work, and etcetera.
At the end of the day, the only thing you want from hard working is to succeed, don’t you?
But, it seemed like there was people who succeeded without even trying, without even taking it seriously. And then, I begin to wonder “what am I doing wrong?”, because I feel like no door was opening up for me.
Frustration landed, and got me more frustrated through as the time went by. I felt like the more I learned, the more undervalued I was. And trust me, feeling that everything you got, you got it just by people’s shame, is even worse than not getting anything.
And I felt like it was like that towards a lot of things. Like someone told me a couple days ago “I got you. I am just like you. We have to work harder than the others to get things”, and for the first time I saw that I was not the only one.
I started to link some events through my journey, and realized that, yes, I succeeded a couple times, but I just let them go. And I noticed, the times I succeeded, it was because I did it myself, and no one else.
That’s how I ended up understanding that, ok, it costs me a lot to make one door open (for some strange and stupid divine reason)
And that I should never stop trying, on my own the things will work, I’m not gonna just sit around waiting for a strike of luck to knock me out.
A couple weeks ago, I heard about some audition for a musical, a disco version of The Wizard of Oz.
Of course, some friends of mine were called to make the first audition. A closed one. Obviously, I wasn’t included in the privileged list.
So after feeling a little down, I started to think and decided just to wait for the open call to the entire population, so I could audition. Again, the “do it yourself” thing.
Days ago, I received a message from the casting’ director. My audition made it through the first casting filter. I made it. And I will continue to.
So, here’s my video audition. I’m more than proud of it and I wanted to share this with you because this is so important for me.
I promise to keep on telling you how this adventure develops
Thanks for reading!